Balance is pretty easy. If there is no eating, and too much eating, the balance would obviously be a "balanced", healthy diet. My life, it's either two extremes. Absolute boredom, or absolute chaos. It kinda proves how hectic things have been since I created this blog about two weeks ago, but today I'm actually writing my first blog. Only because today I've been in my room all day due to my random stomach virus. Sundays are never a day of rest for me, it's pretty much the opposite. Everyday of the week, I'm staying after school. Even if it rains and tennis practice is canceled, I go to get extra help with classes. I put a lot of pressure on myself to get all A's. I'm not very pleased with B's. I honestly try to be perfect too much. Being captain of the J.V. tennis team, and being called the best tennis player on J.V. can really make my head bigger. Getting all A's, being a regular church goer, staying out of trouble, and trying to look nice can really make my head big. I'm always striving for perfection. Even though I know I will never get it, I can't give up for some reason. I may be "the best player on J.V." but when middle of the season comes and I move up to Varsity, I will be the WORST player on Varsity. It's kinda like God. We may be all big and tough and number one on the Earth, but when it comes to God, we're rock bottom. I can get so caught up in my life and whats happening next. About 80% of my thinking is about the next thing, or the future. I daydream about what I want. Man, this blog makes me look really selfish. It's amazing when we pause and take a look at our current life style and just say "is it really worth it?"

About Me

- Hannah Harkness
- Hey there, I'm Hannah. I'm just a college student studying to be a teacher, a lover of God's Word and ministry, a girl who loves to exercise but eats too much dark chocolate, and sometimes I snort when I laugh. I pray that these posts will be encouraging, helpful, and glorifying to the God I serve. Apart from Him, I can do nothing (John 15:5).
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Is it possible to be a Balanced Busy Bee?
I'm not one of those girls always getting in trouble. I don't do drugs, sleep around, drink or any of that. I go to Fellowship of Christian Athletes, YoungLife, Spotswood Baptist Church, Youth Group, and Higher Power. I do mission trips every summer. I've been called into Full-Time missions with Child Evangelism Fellowship, and absolutely LOVE God! I have so much Christian music on my iPhone and mp3. I. Love. It. I want to be absolutely devoted to God and fully surrendered everyday. I strive to be more like God and have more self-control, and more patience. I want to be a difference maker, I truly mean it. But, living a Christian life isn't easy. You're constantly keeping a check on yourself and making you're honoring God with everything you think, say and do. It's not just a decision, it's a daily process proving to God that you're totally game. We can't play God, we win the world for God, since He's the ultimate champion. So many things fly at us while we're trying to win for God, such as relationships, peer pressure, money, stress and so much more. As a teenager in high school, I find everyday challenging since I'm actually trying to live out my faith. Earlier in the year, it was the hardest! I was ON FIRE for God and it made the first couple weeks of being a transfer in a new school the hardest. I would cry, and love to be home. I feel like if school becomes more comforting, I start to check myself and question my faith a little. Am I settling for the world's views? Nowadays, it's a huge statement if you don't do drugs, sleep around, or drink. People who ask me if I do that stuff are literally SHOCKED that there is a teenager that is actually responsible. But why are they responsible? Who taught them to be like that? Living for God and just BEING a good example can make a huge difference as it is. You don't have to say God in every single sentence or wear a million Jesus shirts [you can, but] just being an example and doing what God says is ABSOLUTELY huge! I've learned that this year. Last week, someone came up to me and said "Why are you so nice?" Not to boast, but I honestly get commented on for that a lot for some reason. But this is the first time someone asked me WHY. I smiled and answered: "Well I'm not gonna lie to ya, but it's for sure Jesus Christ. I grew up in a Christian family, accepted Christ when I was 10 and ever since, been livin' the faith." I saw the wonder hit her face. Seed planted.
But like to what I was saying, lately I'm looking for more balance. Keeping a daily surrender with God is not easy, but it's what balances my life. I do have a busy schedule. God says I don't have to give it up, I just need to keep right with him. It's a big responsibility and a big challenge, but He loves me and desires to help me out even when things are moving fast. Being busy isn't bad. It helps you move on from the past and gets you focused on important things. Having a busy life really got my priorities straight. It does test your patience though, especially when times get EXTREMELY stressful. God is the ultimate comforter, and I've got to really experience that. It was actually nice having a day off today and just relaxing and reflecting on my life.
Thank God for stomach viruses.
Created by: Hannah Harkness at 5:39 PM
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